Monday, May 7, 2012

invasion of the body snatcher...and they left me with this?

I am pear shaped.  I accept it.  I own it.  I recognize it.  It's who I am.

I am hyper aware of my weight battle.  After 40 years, if I didn't know I had issues, than I'm an idiot. The only time I might have been an idiot was that one summer when I gained 70 lbs in Alaska and ended the three month stint weighing a whopping 210 lbs.  That summer I might have been a little oblivious.  
If you forget that one summer, I really do get it.  I'm not that person who after gaining five pounds declares "I just don't know how that happened."  I know what happens.  For example, in college, I drank beer.  Beer = weight gain.  Make sense.  Example #2:  When I was pregnant, I gained weight because the parasite needed food.  Even if I didn't like the changes that were happening to my body, I knew why they were happening.  Truthfully, for nine months, there was freedom and I let myself eat whatever that little parasite wanted. 

But turning 40 has wrecked havoc on my metabolism and I'll be damned if I know how to fix it.

Someone has snatched MY body and left me with a 40 year old saggy, doughy, icky body.  Some shizz is happening and I don't like it!   The pear shaped body, that I recognize and know as my own, is slowly moving to an apple shape.  

I told you...shizz is happening and I don't like it!

The kicker is I can't figure out WHY it is happening. I watch what I eat.  I exercise. I drink plenty of water, eat a salad for lunch and dinner (with appropriate protein balance), and don't overindulge in sugars.  So, I'm not being an oblivious idiot.  I just can't figure out the why.

I may not have always like my body but at least it was mine.  This new one?  I haven't a clue what to do with it.  I'm not a big fan.

I read that your 40's can be some of the best years.

I suppose that is true...if you don't mind looking like an apple.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

kindle ipad

Despite owning my beloved iPad since March, I never could understand the allure of the Kindle app.

Why would I want to read a book electronically?

I love to read.  That's kind of a no-brainer since I have book reviews listed on my freaking blog!  When I was younger, reading was my escape from the "mean girls" who picked on me for being smart in school.  I was the library TA in middle school so I could hide out at lunch and didn't have to see anyone.  I had less reason to hide in high school but my family always knew I was working through an issue if I was in bed on a Saturday, reading Little Women or Wrinkle in Time. 

 I love everything about holding a book in my hands.  The smell of paper as I turn the page.  The vision of the bookmark, peeking ever so slightly from atop the book to remind me that escape awaits me.  Piles of books lay by my bed, beckoning me to slow down and open one.  My shelf are fully stocked, reminding me that summer reading isn't too far away. 
So, why would I ever want to open a kindle app to read a book electronically?

That's why.